I love to journal out my thoughts, not to get feedback but just to get them out of my head. I am really confused right now. I have always been someone that does things for others. This next year I want that to be different. I want to start taking care of Me, but i sound so selfish when i think that way. I just know that no one will take care of me if i don't. I have done my share trying to help people and "fix" there problems. I have played God long enough and its time that I be me and work on myself. There are people out there that I love dearly and will continue to love but if i haven't shown them by now that i care about them then i will never be able to get it across to them.
I am just so confused with this world!!!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
The greatest gift....
TRUE FRIENDS!!!!! yep that is the best gift. the last two days Ihave seen true friends in action. I was talking to a friend online last night and he helped me out alot with my mom and dad. He showed me that they have to have dedication for the long haul. I know its not my place to say what goes but I am just glad that i am able to see what i would do different if it were me and i am glad that i have the friendships that i do to hold me accountable if things were to get rough.
I also came home from spending a couple of days at my moms with my brother to a gift from one of my closest friends. She is a person that gets stuff that is so simple yet its so me. She catches the small stuff in our conversations and i like that about her. I am glad to have her in my life and I know that she is someone that God put in my life.
this is how cool she is.......
I was talking to her about how I always do stuff for others and I get left in the dust so this next year I am working on me. I have in 2011 its all about me on my phone and she got me a blanket with a monkey that says it is all about me. thats three in one. I told her i needed a new blanket, i like monkeys and its has my saying for 2011. its just too cool :)
by the way mr brother says hi
I also came home from spending a couple of days at my moms with my brother to a gift from one of my closest friends. She is a person that gets stuff that is so simple yet its so me. She catches the small stuff in our conversations and i like that about her. I am glad to have her in my life and I know that she is someone that God put in my life.
this is how cool she is.......
I was talking to her about how I always do stuff for others and I get left in the dust so this next year I am working on me. I have in 2011 its all about me on my phone and she got me a blanket with a monkey that says it is all about me. thats three in one. I told her i needed a new blanket, i like monkeys and its has my saying for 2011. its just too cool :)
by the way mr brother says hi
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Marry Christmas
........ For better or worse till death do we part? Isn't that what people say when they get married? Well I know my mom and step dad and sister and brother-in-law did. They should have said for better or until i can't handle it anymore and till stress do we part.
This christmas I got a present I wanted when I was five, when i was so small i didn't understand adult hood. My parents our getting a divorce, and my sister and brother might be as well.
It really boggles my mind. I never thought this stuff would happen. I am more in shock than anything. One reason i moved back home was to be around my family and now it is falling apart. My mom plans on moving to tenessee and I don't know what everyone else is planing on doing.
Some days i wonder why did i even bother moving back home. I really liked florida, yeah there were some bad parts but there are bad parts everywhere and there were also good parts in florida too. i have alot of friends down there.
Life is pretty messed up sometimes, This has taught me that I need to make myself happy cause if i don't no one will.
This christmas I got a present I wanted when I was five, when i was so small i didn't understand adult hood. My parents our getting a divorce, and my sister and brother might be as well.
It really boggles my mind. I never thought this stuff would happen. I am more in shock than anything. One reason i moved back home was to be around my family and now it is falling apart. My mom plans on moving to tenessee and I don't know what everyone else is planing on doing.
Some days i wonder why did i even bother moving back home. I really liked florida, yeah there were some bad parts but there are bad parts everywhere and there were also good parts in florida too. i have alot of friends down there.
Life is pretty messed up sometimes, This has taught me that I need to make myself happy cause if i don't no one will.
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