Lessons I have been Learning

There is so much on my mind lately and alot in my heart as well. I need to try and get it out everyday but i can't seem to get to the computer to get it out so i settle to a journal which helps but I have been learning alot even though its all juggled in my head and in no order at all. I am learning about obedience and how that fits into Love. Love seems to be the main focus and Obedience is something God asks from us that love him. From the smallest things to the biggest things. When we are obedient to christ then that shows him that we trust him and until we completely trust him he can not work through us.
I know that i have a problem with trust. But it is more of what others might say if i do something that isn't normal.
I went to church on Sunday and we learned about abraham and issac. Now think about if God asked someone to sacrifice there first born son today. They would be put in a mental instituion and then be convicted of attempted murder. BUT If we truly know who we are in Christ then it doesn't matter what people think. Yeah we would be put in a mental hospital or in prison BUT we wouldn't disobeyed Christ and obeying him matters more then were we are or aren't put.
So i am slowly learning to trust God and get over my fears. I know that God is in control so it doesn't matter how i see the world or the problems.
I have put Melissa in God's hands and I know that whatever happens it will work out for the Good.

God's Will

Just finished reading a book that a friend suggested that I read. It is called Like Dandeloin Dust. Its suppose to be coming out as a movie. It was a really good book and I really enjoyed it. The one thing i took away from the book is God's will always plays out and happens. No matter how much we run from it and how much we hide. No matter what choices we make in life God will get what he wants at the end.
We are like little kids who don't want to take a nap and we kick and scream and run and hide. But our father is patient and doesn't get upset because He knows that we will soon take a nap and the longer we run and hide and kick and scream only hurts us because that mean it will take longer to get what we to wake up and play again.
He stays patient with us because He know at the end of the Day he get what he wants.

Update

Sorry I know i was suppose to blog yesterday but the computers were busy when i came to the library.

I read this book this past week and i learned how I am always wanting to help people. I don't like and have hard time buying stuff for myself. I learned that I don't feel wanted or loved if I don't "earn" it buy doing something for the person that says the love me. I guess its hard for me to just be loved just because. God simply loves me and love you. I am learning that alot. I am doing alot of reading so if anyone has a suggestion of a book for me to read let me know.

Also something i noticed with living with my dad is i still have that kid inside me that can't wait for daddy to get home. I have to hold back from running to the door when i see the car pull up. when he gets home i stop what i am doing just to hang out with him. :)

I didn't get the job i had a interview for but i know i need to trust in God he will lead the way.