Good morning

Today is my second day of no facebook.  I wanna get on it because I want people to know what I have to say. But I wonder if people even really care what I have to say? Not having facebook as really made me start thinking about this illusion that Facebook gives people.  Like the illusion of friends. .. just cause we are friends on Facebook does that really mean we are friends in life? I'm blessed to be able to have lived before facebook and it was a whole different concept back than. You went outside and played with your friends. You had sleep overs with them and you got in the mud and got dirty. And there was a computer screen or phone between you and them.  Facebook has became a very addicting part of society and everything including our emotions are based on what the Facebook world has to say about us. Everyone has an opinion about everything.
        I find myself wanting what I had with Raelynne but then again I wonder if it was just an illusion she put on. I wonder if she got too scared and backed out or if she didn't want to hurt me so she just stopped. 
    Hmmm lol I bet you there Is a pattern in my blogs. Anyways life is life :)
      
    

All about me

Going through my email I had alot of emails notifying me of all the Facebook status I was tagged in. As I read through all the ones Raelynne tagged me in I quickly realized how I seen how she was all about me. How she would praise me for doing things for me or how she couldn't wait for me to get off work. I almost teared up when I read one where she said she loved me. That one of the things I really miss hearing her say. She says all we do nowadays is fight and maybe that is true.  I just wish we could be like we used to be.  I miss those days alot but I also know that I can't live for her.  Idk I just know I gotta do me and make myself happy.

The nut job

Just finished watching The Nut Job. It was a pretty good movie.  You know when I want to walk away from people and be independent and only worry about myself I realize what I'm all about is exactly what life is all about, Sharing.

Facebook deactivated day one

Well I find myself wanting to get on facebook. .. it's like a window in people's life. When your on facebook you almost like connected to something bigger but when you really think about it it really is nothing but drama and complaints. It's a huge ball of poor poor pitiful me's. Yeah it's tough not being on it cause I feel lost but I know this is a good thing for me and in time I will reap good things from it. But right now major withdraws.

Change of focus

So as life takes us down a path sometimes we get so caught up  in chasing something that we forget what we are supposed to be chasing. The other night I was on facebook searching to find something that I know had to be there. I was asking people if they knew anything about it. When out of no where I was slapped across the face with a huge hand. Then God was like Dorothy get a grip of yourself.... your chasing after something that is making you go insane when your supposed to be chasing after me and if you were chasing after me you wouldn't be worrying what others are doing.
    So I have decided to change my focus. I deleted everything out of my life that will cause me to get wrapped up in this fanasty that leads to a empty broken road full of anger pain and hurt. I am leaving Thursday to put myself in check. And starting Monday I will be one my new road to a more fuller prosperous road. I'm looking forward to it.