Apologies, Abortions and more

Have you ever gotten to the point where you feel like you Apologize so much that it doesn't seem to be enough anymore? No matter how much you mean it you still feel like you need to do something else to show just how much you mean it. I have been thinking about this recently. The same thing with "thank you". When i say that i am sorry for something I really am sorry for it. When i say thank you i really am thankful but lately it just seems to me that i need to do something more to show that i am truly sorry or how thankful i am. For me the words don't seem to cut it anymore. I just don't know what else i can add to it. People can't see the inside to see the depth of what i mean it when i say those words.

Today while I was at work I was talking to a co-worker and she was telling me how she felt sick and felt like she was going to throw up. She then told me how she hopes that she isn't pregnant. I asked her what she would do if she was pregnant and without a blink she said bye bye. With cnfusion i asked who would be bye bye her or the baby and she said "the baby, I would rather get rid of the baby then me." I didn't know what to say and I know at the point of time it was better not to say anything because it wouldn't came out like i wanted it to and it really did something to the inside of me. I was disgusted i really was. After my walk home and thinking about it I realized that the most powerful thing i can to is pray and give it to God.

Which leads me to the "more" part of this post. I am learning what exactly love is. What does it look like, How do we live it out? Is it ever painful to love? How do we know when we truly grasp it and have it down to where is naturally flows from us. I really want to love people. People that are close to me and people that I don't even know. I just want to love and I want everything i say i do to be said and done in love. I have been looking at how it is in the bible but i seem to be having a hard time truly understanding it and putting it into action.

God's gift

I have always believed that friends are a gift from God. I still do and always will. All friends are gifts and just like gifts we give to one another God gives us special gifts, gifts that are priceless. Not everyone is blessed with a friendship of gold. For some reason God blessed me with a friendship of Gold and I do not take it for granted. I use to thinking that i could do anything and she will always be there but God taught me a lesson.



Anyways, I am very thankful for this friendship and i thank God every night, even in the times i am mad and can't talk to God i make sure i thank him for giving me this friend because I know that it is a gift and a very special gift.



Don't take God's gifts for granted. There are people that come in and out of your life everyday and one of them could be a gift from God. If you are to wrapped up in other things you will miss it.

Prayer Request

I have been spending more and more time with God recently and I am starting to pray for others. Anyone from my enemies to my friends to a random person i see walking on the street. It is really cool to be praying for others. I thought i would invite people to send me prayer request so that i can be praying you also. You can give me as much or as little detail as you would like. If you just want to say hey i can use some prayer or you want to give me a book on details that is up to you. I just would love to pray for you whether i know you or not. I have seen God do amazing work in my prayer life. So if you read this and want prayer leave a comment and i will surley be praying for you.

One step forward ......

You know the saying one step forward and two steps back? Well I see that played out in alot ofp people's life, even mine. Recently its been more like one step forward turn around a walk back cause i have been really sliding. I got to a point where i couldn't look at the bible without gettng mad. I would try and pray and i couldn't do it cause of the sin i was living in. This past Monday I broke. I couldn't handle it any more and I broke. Now i am back in God's prescence and i don't ever want to leave him. I can feel a difference in me. i am working hard not to go down any of my " red zones" and continuely reading the bible. I am learning how the flesh is a very strong thing to over come and everday is a battle that we can not grow lazy one. I am realizing that God uses me even though i might not see it. I need to continuely be on guard and keep the flesh from rising up because i don't ever want to go back to where i was.

Now for me, my saying is one step at a time one foot in front of the other and never look back.

How about you? I encourage you to join me and keep on moving one step at a time.