Have you ever gotten to the point where you feel like you Apologize so much that it doesn't seem to be enough anymore? No matter how much you mean it you still feel like you need to do something else to show just how much you mean it. I have been thinking about this recently. The same thing with "thank you". When i say that i am sorry for something I really am sorry for it. When i say thank you i really am thankful but lately it just seems to me that i need to do something more to show that i am truly sorry or how thankful i am. For me the words don't seem to cut it anymore. I just don't know what else i can add to it. People can't see the inside to see the depth of what i mean it when i say those words.
Today while I was at work I was talking to a co-worker and she was telling me how she felt sick and felt like she was going to throw up. She then told me how she hopes that she isn't pregnant. I asked her what she would do if she was pregnant and without a blink she said bye bye. With cnfusion i asked who would be bye bye her or the baby and she said "the baby, I would rather get rid of the baby then me." I didn't know what to say and I know at the point of time it was better not to say anything because it wouldn't came out like i wanted it to and it really did something to the inside of me. I was disgusted i really was. After my walk home and thinking about it I realized that the most powerful thing i can to is pray and give it to God.
Which leads me to the "more" part of this post. I am learning what exactly love is. What does it look like, How do we live it out? Is it ever painful to love? How do we know when we truly grasp it and have it down to where is naturally flows from us. I really want to love people. People that are close to me and people that I don't even know. I just want to love and I want everything i say i do to be said and done in love. I have been looking at how it is in the bible but i seem to be having a hard time truly understanding it and putting it into action.
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