Black and whit

I'm writing this as you sleep on our bed and me on Tates. As I look at you I wonder what the future holds for us and it scares me. I want to take walks with you under the stars. I want to dance in the rain with you. I dream of laying on the ground looking up at the stars. Live life in color.  But instead we lay in bed and watch TV and sleep and sleep and sleep. It's mundane and boring. And I wonder is their life out there!!!!

Bad days

Your bound to have a bad day sometime in your life, more than likely alot of them.
When you do other people around you are going to have to put up with your crap. I don't know which one is worse. However what I do know is I'm glad that I have those people around me that love me in spite of my bad days and I try to do the same towards those that I love.
 

I love how she loves me

You know sometimes it's hard for people to do something they aren't used to. It's foreign to them. Sometimes they have to be led or shown and it takes time. She needs to realize that I'm not going anywhere and that all I want to do is love her. She will come around in time. And I'll be able to endure every simply because I know through it all she loves me ;)

Midnight prayer

Hey God,
It's me here... I'm hurting really bad and you know I've been through these nights many times before and I promised myself that I would never allow myself to hurt like this again. I fought for four months not to let this girl get to me. Time after time I felt myself falling  for her and each time I would catch myself and fight harder and harder to not allow myself to fall in love with her. Even though my feelings kept getting stronger I would bury them and do the best I can to hide them.
    But they got the best of me and I fell, I fell really hard.
It's been two months and I'm laying in this bed alone as she's upstairs in her bed. Papa I hurt. And I don't want to hurt like this again. Papa I don't want to go thru this pain again. I'll hold it all in cause one thing I know for sure is I'll be damn ed to let her know how bad I hurt!!!! I've learned to trust her .... it gets easier when I remember how much she loves  me. But papa my love for her scares the shit out of me.

This girl ....

It's more than the feelings I get when I look at her. Its more than the look in her eyes when I stare at her. It's the simple fact that she helps me grow and see how blessed  I am to have someone be straight up with me yet won't let go. This girl I love and want to marry. ;)

Special things

Love is a special thing and even more special when u love the very person that loves you. What makes it even more special is when you trust that person
  Trust is a very very scary and hard thing for me. I'm slowly taking chances and forcing myself to trust. When I put myself through these moments where I choose to do the opposite of what I really wanna do, I panic on the inside but I breathe and wait. It gets easier each time and makes my love even stronger for her. To know I have someone that actually have my back. It feels amazing. I'm starting to realize that not everyone is like the past people in my life. Kimberly Dunsizer I love you. Thank you for showing me true love.

Shattered pieces

" a girl once told me to be careful when trying to fix a broken person for you may cut yourself on their shattered pieces."

   I believe this to me true cause I know I cut myself many times on your broken pieces as I tried to pick them up for you and put them back together but I finally realized you don't want them picked up or pit back together because putting them back together hurts worse then them being broken. The sad thing that you can see is that though it may hurt worse during the healing process it, the hurt finally goes away and you can enjoy life as you once did.
Your broken and damaged and you hurt, yourself and others. But through it all I still see that little piece of you that wants to love and care and be happy.