Looking Forward to 2008

There is about 3 and 1/2 hours before a new year has begun. As i think about what is ahead for me I am excited and i want to be able to look to God get into such an intimate relationship with him. I want to serve people. i have such a desire for it i just want the courage to go with it. I know that there are going to be hard times and i know there are going to be good times. In 2008 i want to lean on God and make him my main focus.

Get over it

I have been learning how to make my friendships simple and not reading into everything people do. I wish others could learn that also. Last night i learned that there are alot of people that still have expectation for me and when i don't follow through i get a look from everyone that says " you are not accepted because you are failing my expectations." Well i am over that and i am not planning on meeting anyone expectations. I am tired of feeling like i have to do what others want me to do and the way i see it if they don't like that i talk on my cell then don't ask me to come over. Some people are not phone people and some people are and i am a phone person. i just had to vent a little on here because it really bothers me.

Home

I have been home for a couple days and since i have been home I have visit many people and saw some familiar places. I have been away from Indiana for about six months so i am glad that I was able to come back and see my family and friends. It didn't take long to relize that I don't belong here. Things haven't changed. The minute i walked through the door at my house i took on the same roll that made me want to leave. When i went to visit the church that i belonged too it hasn't changed at all. There is no growth or progression. Going to Warsaw to vist friends just wasn't a heart warming feeling. I love my family and friends here in Indiana but i don't get excited like i do when i think about traveling or going to florida. I have grown so much since i have been gone so coming back a different person to a place that hasn't changed it a litte hard.
Sunday as i was sitting in church I swear I have listen to that sermon every year around Christmas. I didn't really listen to it because it was just so blah. I can tell that this is not the place for me. It is just so interesting that the place that most of your loved ones live is the one place you don't want to be.

Light the DARK! as Servants

The other night my friend text me around 3 in the morning (East coast time). The text read " Light up the Darkness". She had just went and saw a movie with friends so i thought it came from there but i wasn't for sure. As I read it I was blown away with the magintude of clearity it had for me. I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night. Every time i closed my eyes all i could think about was how I needed to Light the dark. Thoughts and Ideas just flooded my mine and I laid awake thinking about it. This phrase as become a passion for me and i have so many ideas on how we can Light the dark so i thought i would share them. Here is one way and there will be more to come.

As Followers of Christ we have the light and we are the only ones that are able to past this light on to others. one way to past the light on is to serve people. Don't do something with the intend of getting something back. Have a mindset of serving because you are told to serve and are able to serve. There will be times where you feel like you are getting walked on and it starts eating at you because it just doesn't seem fair. Just ask yourself Was it fair for Jesus to die for the sins i commited? That question has helped put me back in a place of serving. There are many other ways that you can light the dark but lets learn to serve together. This week i encourge you to find ways to serve others. Don't pick certain people to serve just randomly serve them just because you can. It is a great gift just to be able to serve people. I love to serve others and I know serving is a gift i have because when i can't serve or others won't let me serve them I can feel how i change and i don't like it. So this week lets LIGHT THE DARK by serving others.

Its A Wonderful Life

Tonight I went with a group of people to watch the play Its A Wonderful Life. I do have to admit that they play was very low budget and low quality. However the message i liked. I thought about all the people that I have came in contact with and how we have been changed because of that person. or how others have been changed because you. When I think about this there is someone that comes to mind. Coming in contact with this person as totally impacted my life. If they were never born I probably would have never graduated college, probably would have became like my family and given up hoping all together. Because GOD brought this person into my life I have been challenged and encouraged. I have done stuff i never thought i would be able to so i thank God for a wonderful friend.

thought

I was talking to my boss the other day on the phone and she was telling me how it is good to be challenged and i am going to grow because of it. As i was doing my show today a thought hit me. Why do people think they always know whats best for me? What if i don't want to be challenged in certain areas in my life. I find myself in places where i am comfortable and i like being comfortable. i hang out with certain people and choose to work with them because i like working with them. i like the way they work and their work ethic. this might not make since here but it does in my head and and am done letting people put me in places that i don't what to be in. it doesn't help my life any