........ For better or worse till death do we part? Isn't that what people say when they get married? Well I know my mom and step dad and sister and brother-in-law did. They should have said for better or until i can't handle it anymore and till stress do we part.
This christmas I got a present I wanted when I was five, when i was so small i didn't understand adult hood. My parents our getting a divorce, and my sister and brother might be as well.
It really boggles my mind. I never thought this stuff would happen. I am more in shock than anything. One reason i moved back home was to be around my family and now it is falling apart. My mom plans on moving to tenessee and I don't know what everyone else is planing on doing.
Some days i wonder why did i even bother moving back home. I really liked florida, yeah there were some bad parts but there are bad parts everywhere and there were also good parts in florida too. i have alot of friends down there.
Life is pretty messed up sometimes, This has taught me that I need to make myself happy cause if i don't no one will.
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That's where you just have to true God. You can't do things for others, you gotta do what God is calling you to do, and simply obey.
You can't control what your mom, step-dad, siblings, etc do. You just need to do what God wants you to do.
Unfortunately when marriages are not Christ-centered, it is harder to stay together. But even in their disobedience you can still learn, grow, and draw closer to Christ in the midst of it all.
your right i have to trust god and obey him. but what exactly is he wanting me to do. when i was down in florida it seemed like he told me to come home, now i am home all i can think about is florida. I will read book after book and all that pops in my head is the dream center. i start thinking about all the kids that we were teaching and how much they were being impacted. yeah there were alot of things that i didn't agree with there but that doesn't mean i had to run away from everyone. Even the women's group. You know that it was growing and stop growing when i became selfish and left. I am not saying that it was all me or any certain person. I just know that it was my passion and i was being used by God but i got stupid and selfish. I grew to love those people and they became like family to me cause i would see them outside of the dream center and they had my back. Take Corn for instance i would see him all the time and that boy would give me some good preaching. I want to serve and do God's work but I just don't know where to do it. I let one problem in my life take away all of that. I know that I can't expect anything from anyone else and i have to do for myself and that is what i am going to do but it just sucks about my mom and dad because they raised me and after they sell the house your home you are use to is all gone and there is no place for you to come back to.
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