First place

i was reading my devotion journal this morning and i think God finally got through to me. As i was reading it i was also thinking about i feel like i try so hard to engage with people and show them that i truly care for them and i get nothing back. i don't know how many emails i have sent out that people just don't reply back to for one reason or another or phone calls that people haven't returned. Yesterday after i found out that my dad hasn't been keeping is word and hasn't been paying my college bill like he said he would, i just had all i could take. i feel like i am always trying and never getting the results that i want to get. so as i was reading this is what i learned
1. it sucks when you aren't in controll
2. Everyone that i want to love me God created them.
3. If i just put my time learning about and loving God the way that i learn about and love people them maybe i won't always feel like i am worthless and go unnoticed.
4. i need to put God back where he belongs. Back in first place