Straight UP

So my friend blogged about accountability and i responded back to it and it led me to a question about myself. Why does it bother me so much when she gets upset? i don't understand why i get that way. When my friend Zito calls me up and starts talking about her problems to me i tell her straight up what i am thinking and i don't care if i offend her or upset her in anyway. i tell her like it is and sometimes it is something that she needs to work on and sometimes it is not. Same thing with my friend bekah i tell her straight up also but why can't i be straight up with the one friend that i would consider to be my best friend. here are some reason that i thought about and maybe i can find ways to get over it and stop being scared and start being straight up

1. I am afraid that she will stop being my friend.
I haven't figured out why i am so worried about that. Lately i have been thinking about it and it finally clicked that if i focused on God like i have foucused on my friend and our friendship then i would be doing great. i realized that i need to foucus on God and by doing that i won't care if she gets upset when i am honest with her and she gets upset. ( that last statement was the hardest thing for me to write)

2. I feel like i am waisting my time.
there are times when i tell her something and i get the impression that she can't really care less what i am saying to her. i don't know if that is true or not but that is what i percieve. now that could be true or it could be me and how i am percieving it. i need to realize that whether she care or not i still need to be straight up and honest with her because i am called to do that as one of her friends. How she responds to it is in her court and up to her.

Those are the only two i can think about right now maybe you can think of some. If i consider her to be my best friend then she should be the one that i am the most honest and straight with.