Can't buy me love

Today reminded me of my childhood when my mom and I would watch movies together. Since we are the only ones home we are able to relax and watch TV. My mom was watching the movie "Can't buy me love". Since i was upstairs laying on the couch i ended up watching it too.

I really liked the moral of the story and what the dude said at the end rang true in my life. Ronald Miller paid a girl 1000 dollars to act like they were dating. He was a nerd and wanted to become a jock but at the end of the movie he realizes that he can't buy love and he needs to be himself. He realizes that is hard enough trying to be who he is why make it harder trying to be someone he isn't.

I have tried to "buy" peoples love so many times. I am so afraid that if i didnt work for it then i wouldn't get it so i would do crazy things to get accepted. Like make sure i captilized all my i's everytime i wrote a blog when i really can personally care less if they are captilized or not. I finally realized that i am working so hard to keep my friends that i got tired of it and realized that if this is what i have to do then i don't want friends so I quit...


BUT

I then realized that i was doing it all for nothing cause it was driving them nuts too and the loved me and accepted me for who i was and i was doing all this stuff because i didn't know who i was. Now i am on a journey to figure out who i am and i have one of the coolest people in my life that accepts me just the way i am. I am so glad i can relax and be myself and she will accept it and yet help me grow more towards God. Love is one thing that we need to stop trying to gain because it is one thing that only can be given not bought.