This quote has stuck in my head this morning and have been thinking about Life as I know it to be. Life is crazy at times and very frustrating because we humans arent cut from cooking cutters and we dont all have the same thoughts or feelings about situations. Some of us just cant imagine one would feel a certain way after a situation happens.
My brother for example is going through a break up and he keeps saying " if she really loved me then she wouldnt have done that" in his mind there is no possible way that his exgirlfriend would have made the actions that she did if she really loved him. But yeah she could have loved him and made those actions and only she knows the truth behind her actions.
Life as I know it is different the Life as you know it. We both can think something very oppisite and yet both be correct. I am learning every day and I love to share what i learn about the life i know If you have read any of my previous post you will know that I am one who struggles/struggled with a homosexual lifestyle. I have dated only one girl and I love her with every ounce of my body. I have also struggled with not wanting those homosexual feelings and with being who i believe God wants me to be. One of my people that I look up to and adore alot is Chely Wright. After watching her documentry i fell in love with her cause I knew the struggles that she went through and she helped me see the light. Allthough i didnt follow in the same direction as she did i still admire her greatly and I learned that God loves me unconditionally.
Today I am learning more about life and its changing greatly. I am in a true real relationship with a man who loves me more and more everyday. He accepts everything about me . when i look at him i just get so emotional cause i know his love is real and true love is a very scary thing. I see God's love through him. Being with him makes me love my womanhood and the desire to want to be a guy is no longer there. I find myself wanting to be pampered. i find myself wanting to dance in fields. I find myself wanting to scream with joy!!!! and I love it!!!
I love it so much that i want to share it with you!! I want you to know my fears and my joys. I want you to know that Life as I know it may be different then you know it but thats ok because its our life and there is a purpose to it.
As for those wondering about Melissa, the woman i love. She still lives in Florida and has a boyfriend. I talk to her every so often and she says she is doing well. I told her about Donald and she was happy for me. We know that God has a plan for the both of us and we have both accepted that his plan wasn't for us to be together. I am so glad that I listened to God cause I know Donald is the one for me. Life! isnt it such a crazy journey. Welcome to my Life as I know it.
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