The Raggamuffin I am

Jesus loves me, Yes Jesus loves me for the bible tells me so......

Remember that song we all used to sing in Sunday school?  It seems to be resonating with me more nowadays in my adult life.

We go through the ups and downs in life trying to find that one person who loves us just as we are. We don't find it so we become something we are not to feel that love and acceptance from others. We crave to be loved just like everyone else. But we have those things about us that some people cant accept therefore they cant truly love us the way we want them too.

If your anything like me, you know exactly what I am talking about. Being gay and trying to go to church is like putting a camel through the eye of a needle. I don't how many times I have went back and forth denying either my gayness or my Jesus just to be accepted in one of the two groups. cause how dare I take my gayness into the church or take my Jesus into the gay community. Deep down I just want to be loved for the ragamuffin I am.

So they say the Jesus guys loves me cause the Bible tells us so. Well the sad part of that is the bible is connected to the church . So how is this all suppose to work?

Well let me tell you....

whether or not you go to church it doesn't matter.... its when we all accept our baggage and our dirt. pick it all up. All the lies you've told, all the horrible things you've done. The things you hate about your self... you big nose or your crooked ears. your flabby stomach  or  your puny arms. Grab it all up and sit it down right at Jesus feet. Forget what you experienced in church cause at this point its not about church its about you and Jesus.  Take it to him and let him love you. Accept it. whatever he tells you, Believe it!

Jesus loves us,  o yes Jesus loves us, not because I say so or the church says so . He loves us cause his word says so. Whether Gays or addicts, whether big or tall we all belong.  For we are weak and He is strong. Strong enough to carry all our flaws and failings.

O Jesus loves us o yes he loves us. He so dearly loves us. As he always had. Holding out his hands saying " o my child come to me, Come to me just as you are. Bring me all your broken pieces, Bring me all your anger and hate. Its ok come to me and let me love you for the ragamuffin you are.

Friends when you experience his love, When you really take that time to just let him love all over. Into all the cracks, all the if I only did this or I regret that's, all the fuck ups that we just cant seem to get over. when we truly let him love us its a freedom of true peace... I am in the midst of it right now.

Its a journey but at the end of the journey I know I will come out refreshed!