in order to truly be happy...

these words have been on my mind since saturday night. my dad told me " In order to be truly happy i have to be me because that is all i can be". when he told me this i couldn't help but ask the questions Who am I? What do i like? What makes me truly happy? the thing that gets me the most is the context that my dad said this in.
we were talking and he asked me what is my passion in life? what is the one thing i would love to do? i told him i would love to work with youth that struggle with SSA (same sex attraction). he asked me why and i told him because it is something that i have struggled with and i want to help others that deal with it. He then told me a story about himself and then those famous words were said. i didn't know what he was trying to say.
anyways that got me to thinking about who i really am and what will truly make me happy. i also started thinking about Could someone be truly happy and living a sinfull life? how would i know if i was truly happy? For example i could say that i am truly happy right now but maybe i will be happier if i stopped fighting my struggles and gave into them. i will never know if that will make me truly happy until i did that. i can only be as happy as i know how to be and i believe that i will never be truly happy til i get to heaven ( i would like to blame ashley for that rabbit trail. as i was typing i was like she is rubbing off on me :))
so back to the point though what would make me truly happy? maybe i first need to find out who i am because i think that i have allowed people to pull and push me to liking the things they like or doing the things they do and now i don't even know what i truly like or who i really am. i have been starting to ask myself if i like this or that and if the answer is no then i get rid of it. somes examples are blogs. my friend introduced them to me and she has alot. i didn't know that i liked them until she told me about them. at first i started to read all the ones she liked but i realized quickly that i am not one to read all of those so i realized i liked reading blogs but not that much so i then realized i LOVE reading Perry Nobles blog so i kept his and a few others that i like to skim through but i deleted the rest. there are some things that i don't know that i like because i did't even know the exist and once i am introduced to them ( usually by someone that likes it themselves) like Roly Poly :) then i realize that i like that.
i also need to figure out what i believe also. that is another thing that i allow people to tell me to believe so i have to think through things like that. i need to start to become myself and find out who i am then i will be able to find what makes me truly happy or at least as happy as i know how to be because all i know right now is i am happy when i am around my friends that let me be me the best i know how to be. ( thanks pal)