Amazing people.

i woke up upset the other day and i couldn't fall back to sleep. i just had alot of thinks on my mind that i was thinking about. i spent time talking to God and telling him about my frustration and how i don't want to live at home. Anyways i knew i was going to be hanging out with Ashley later on that day and i was looking forward to it. Well i was full of anger and frustration until i saw ashley's car pull up where we were meeting at. i don't know why and i have said this before but i am totally at peace when i am around her. it is like i can relax and not worry about things. after encounter i didn't want to go home yet( i never want to) so i asked her if we can hang out a little longer and she said yes so we grabbed a treat from dairy queen and went to a church and chilled there. after we were done she dropped me off and like always it takes all the power i have to force myself out of her car and into my own. this time though she told me not to worry that we will see each other soon and for some reason it those words hit me hard and i felt tears building up so i just went to my car and left. on the way home i was thinking how is it that i do everything even pray for these anger, frustration, scared feelings to go away and i eventually just have to let them sit inside because they won't go away until the minute i see ashley's car they disappear. i just don't understand it. It is just so amazing to me how it works like that but its cool. Anyways, i am glad that she is my friend.
After i got home i went down i talked to my brother's girlfriend to see how he is doing ( my brother is in jail) what started out as she a question ended up into a hour and a half conversation about my brother. i learned that him and i have alot in common we just choose to deal with things differently. I think this my teach him and he will learn his lesson. i also am glad that i decided to change my perspective of him and see that there is good in him and that he just needs the good influence there to support him. i am glad that he is my brother.