Hold Please.

Recently i have been doing alot more reading then i have been when i was in school. i just finished reading " In the Presence of my enemies" which was a really good book. i really enjoyed it. The book i am reading now is called" On a hill too far away" by John fischer. Ashley chose it for me because she wanted to choose my next book so i told her she could and so she did. At first i didn't like it but now it is growing on me and i am starting to like it. it is forcing me to open my mind up and actually think about the cross. this book puts the cross right in your face and anytime i look at a cross i just think about what fischer is saying and my minds starts to go. The funny thing about is that i have gotten back into making the crosses that my dad taught me how to make. So i think about what the book is saying as i am making them.
I have recently been thinking about my relationship with Christ and how i tend to cheat him alot. the other day i was thinking about how if it wasn't for him i wouldn't be able to be where i am now. i was riding in the car coming back from somewhere how i treat him. Even today i was thinking about it. take my friend ashley for instants. i tend to stop doing anything when she wants my attention. if i am on the phone i will tell the person to hold on, if i am reading i will stop reading, if i am hanging out with someone else and ashley calls i answer it, if i am watching tv i will stop focusing on it and see what she wants. i will even tell god to hold on if she is trying to tell me something.Why do i do this? because that relationship is important to me and i care about her . Now if you were to ask me if i do that with chirst? yeah lets just not go there. sadly i just pretty much tell him later. i will do my devotions later. i will read the bible later or after i am done with this ( then i tend to still not do it). Also alot of times when i do my devotions i do them just to get it finished and i don't like it when other people do stuff just to do it and get it out of the way. So this is what this book as gotten me to think about lately and i really want to changed that. i want to tell the person of the phone to hold on a min because god is talking to me or shut off the tv because god is speaking. Now i do this with my other friends too i just happened to use her for and example because i live with her so i can see it happen more frequently then i can with others. this book has been hard to read but it has been convicting me alot also and that is something that i need.