My little bro

The other day i talked to my mom and she told me that my brother was sent off to prison. He has been in the county jail for a while now and they called his number so it was his turn to get sent away. When i heard my moms voice, i knew that she wasn't taking it very well. Ever since then he has been on my mind and my heart. Bad things happen in prison and i don't want my brother to be experiencing that stuff. I agree he needed a wake up call but i wouldn't want any one to have to go through some things that happen in prison.

I know that some people might say that he deserves all of it but thinking back on our childhood all i can say is that I am a very lucky child to end up the way that i did. My family wasn't horrible but I can totally see how he would have chosen that road.

Growing up with a twin brother and having everyone tell you how great you are and giving him a big head. Putting expectations on him that he didn't want or couldn't achieve. While all he really wanted was a relationship with his dad. He wanted to be accepted the way he was and his friends would do that.

Seeiing his mom and other siblings smoking pot and being told that it was the "cool" thing to do. later on in life seeing how much money one can make by selling drugs. Listening to his dad always talking about money. My brother isn't a dumb kid. He listens to all of these things around him and puts two and two together thinking it will buy him accpetance and love and all it does is gets him further away from his dad and eventually lands him in jail.

Watching my brother go in a downward spiral after i had my eyes opened up by a friends i realize i was just as guilty as the rest of my family. I miss my brother alot and i have realized how the thing i say to him might seem to go through one ear and out the other but i also know that there are somethings that stick with him and i hope one of those things is God.

I ask that while he is in prison and only 19 years old that God will protect him and that he will learn how he can become a better man and a better father for his children.