I don't. I want to be with her. i want her to love me. I want it to be real I just want us to be together. I really love her and I want her to love me back. I wish it could be but since it can't. I just don't want to think about her and i just can't get her out of my head.
She calls me and asks me for money. I wish she would actually care about me for me and not she want from me. What am i wanting from her. What am i craving from her. Why can't i just say forget her. Why do i feel bad if i don't send her money.
I want to be her friend but i just can't. she pisses me off and upsets me. She still runs me and I hate it. I want to let her completely go but i just can't. I feel like she has taken over my heart and my soul and i just can't let her go. I want to write her and let her know how she has hurt me and what she has done to me. I want her to know how I feel but then i wonder if she will even read it and if she knows whats it really going to do. its not like we can ever be together.
I just can't wait til the day where i don't hurt anymore. o what a glorious day that will be.
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