LOVE

Love is something that i crave. I want to be loved and i want to love. I wonder if love can be a downfall or if you can love to much. I have been thinking about love and wonder if what i am really craving is even really love at all. I crave attention and love it when someone is paying attention to me. I love it when i am being praised and accepted but don't we all like it. If i am giving someone attention and praising them am I loving them.

Here is the deal I miss Melissa cause she showed me attention and praised me and spent time with me. I like that and i miss it. I miss talking to her and when she calls me or i call her i dont want to hang up the phone cause i crave all of that. I just want someone to listen to me and she did that. But then I think about how i write her letters and all she wants from me is money. She is always asking about if i will send her money. I don't like that but its like i am paying for her to be my friend. I don't like to think about it like that but when i do it makes me not even want to speak to her. I want someone who really cares about me and wants to listen to me. But i don't or can't let her go to the point of stop talking to her completely.

I don't know maybe i just want her to know that she can do better then what she is doing and that money isn't everything . I am not quite sure why i am still talking to her and at times craving her company but I am and I do know that I desperatly want her to know that she is loved but i think i need to realize that i am loved also and i can force her to realize it.

ALL i can do is pray for her