Expectations, Motives, and More

I got a email the other day that asked me what i was expecting from them and what my motives were. That led me to think about that last night. It made me realize how free I am now that I moved back home. Once I gave up trying to get people to care about me or love me and just accepted that they will either love and care about me or they won't I gave myself a sense of freedom. I no longer have expectations or motvies. Before I spend most of my day wondering what I could do to get someone to show me that they would accept me. It was tiring and most of the time it didn't work for me. By doing that it build lies in my head that made me to keep doing things because I was afraid if i stopped then our friendship will stop. Now I don't have that worry anymore. I am now able to love freely. It is so much better and i am not living my life in bondage anymore and i can start being me and doing things I want to do. Let me tell you it feels so amazing. Its like tons just came off of my back and I am able to truly love and care for people.

I am still trying to get use to this weather. I just got back and I already caught me a cold. I really haven't been outside since i came back from my sister's house. I did go hang out with a friend Monday night. But other then that I have been enjoying the inside of my house.

I have to say that I love my nieces and nephews so much. they are so cute and i don't really have a favorite anymore. They are all my favorite and I can't wait to be able to see Brody bowl and hang out with Kyndra. DJ has been such a help around the house and he is so cute that you just have to laugh when he tries to help do a job that is bigger then him. I haven't got to see much of Makayla but I am sure that will change.

I woke up to an email this morning that Resetter Printer commented on my blog. It was a reall comment but it is weird that a printer company is commenting on my blog. i can't complain though they really like my blog but I just found it a little akward that it came from a company

I was talking to a friend the other day and was telling her how i am experiencing something that I have never experience before. I am living in a freedom and peace but yet I am hurting. That is the best way that i can explain but it is so weird.

K I am going to go hang out with Dj for a little bit.