Today was amazing!! The grace and freedom I have been experiencing today was just amazing. I finally got to go to Grace and visit with some people there and I really enjoyed it. I have told some of my friends that I would be up there on Friday cause I had a meeting and thought we could catch up for a little bit. Hanging out with and seeing how much grace people gave me was just so overwhelming.
All I kept thinking was the choice that I made in life I would take a second look at me but not these people. They were just so encouraging and came with arms wide open. I think all of them kept telling me how glad they were to have me back. All I kept thinking was all the things I regretted and they would look at me and be like don't regret it, God had you there for a reason and he used you. It like at times when I think i messed up and screwed up God shows me that we all have issues and that is why there is Grace. Grace is so amazing!!!!
As I was talking to everyone I didn't bother looking at my phone. It was such a freedom to set my phone aside and to be able to look in my friends' eyes and really care about them. Such a freedom to be able to make my own choices and not worry about what other people would think. ( sidenote... It is so interesting how we tend to think that we know what other people are thinking. I mean I really struggled with that and I am sure if I would asked her what she was thinking at that time she would totally be thinking about something completely different. but i so thought i knew and it held me back).
It was so amazing to me the conversations I had with my friends. I was able to be open and honest with one of them. I could bring up things and admit things without feeling akward or judgemental. She then opened up to me and started telling me about her life and we both knew that we have issues and sooner or later our sin does catch up with us and it did with the both of us.
The coolest thing about today was being able to protect others. That was one thing that I was so scared about today was that people would start talking and I would start talking but it wasn't like that at all. I was able to be open and honest but yet protect and change the subject or let people know that I still care about her and I am not going to go there and they were accepting of that.
God really showed me how awesome and blessed I really am to have friends that still let me be apart of there life even after I have continued to screw them over . I just couldn't stop thinking about it and I still can't. I am so thankful for them and the encouragment that it has given me.
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