God blesses and more

I can't believe that it took me this long to listen and obey what God was telling me. I have fought him for a long time. I finally give up and listen and I see how lives have been changed and people seem so much happier and content. It has been hard for me to be at home but I have to admit that I have a peace that I haven't had for a long time. I know this is where i am suppose to be. Moving back here was a hard thing for me to do but God blessed me with encouragement and strength from a couple of friends. when i have a hard time i know i can call up one of two friends and all i have to say is i need some encouragement cause i am really struggling right now and they will let me know that things will be all right. The other day I was talking with someone and I was telling her that I know this is what God wants me to do and the hardest part is that people don't know everything that i was dealing with inside me or they just don't get it and they think I made descisions based on them. this friend told me that sometime God is the only one that understands and that is ok. I am glad that when no other human being gets what is going on inside us that God does. It is amazing to be able to go to him and let him know the how you hurt because of things that you said or did that you wish you could take back or how much you wish other people would understand. Or how you he gets you when people just don't get you. I am so glad i can just share my struggles and thoughts with him or i can just cry to him and he is there to let us know that things will be ok. I am learning how amazing God is. Sometime he has us do things that make no sense to us so we can't explain them to someone else when we don't even understand it but he understands it and that is all that matters. I am seeing alot of good things happening and I am looking forward to more.