The kind of person

Yesterday I went up to Sarasota to talk to someone about an inccident that has been going on for a couple of weeks now. When Iwent up there I had a completely different picture of what was going to happen then what did happen.
As I was coming back I had a chance to talk to my friend and as Ihave been thinking about what kind of person i am I have realized I am not the person I want to be. I always thought that I had this friendship thing mastered and I knew how to be a friend but yesterday changed all of that. I have learned that there are things that I do that isn't respectful to my friends. I also learned that my friends protect me.
So I got home yesterday and I started writing down some questions and thoughts and decided that I am going to work on changing who i am to the kind of person I want to be.

This is the kind of person I want to be:

• I want to be honest. I want to live my life so everything I do and say is something I won't be ashamed of or tempted to hide from anyone in my life.
• I want to be simple with my words. I am one that talks too much. I have learned that when I talk I tend to talk to much. After I am done talking i don't even know what i said because I said so much.
• I want to think before I speak.
• I want to depend more on God. Something this past couple of weeks has taught me is that i go to my phone more then I go to God. I want to be ok sitting in trials and knowing that God is right there with me.
• I want to fear God. I have learned that I fear man more then I fear God.
• I want to love people for the simple fact of who they are.
• I want to be patient. I have been learning that some people take longer to do things then I do. I want to respect that and be ok when something can't be "fixed" right away.

These are things that I have been thinking about and how I am going to work on them. I know that this will be a process and I will need accountability for them. I am glad that I am learning more about myself and I can't wait to see how different I am in a year.